Post by Donna Katherine Lopez on Sept 25, 2007 19:58:46 GMT -5
((Some entries may have nothing to do with the story plot, just writing because I need something to do and I HAVE to be writing something!))
-:-Never Forget Who You Are-:-
Dearest,
You were given to me by my father, a gift for the trials to come. At the time you were an intriguing attempt to get me to double my efforts of study, but now I see you as my father meant you to be - a companion when all others are gone. If I had a whole well of ink, or a whole day to scribble my thoughts, I don't think I could get it all down, as the memories are emotional just to recall at this moment. I know that nobody shall see you or your secrets, and that is why you are my dearest - the only one who will know what I have been through just to be who I am.
I suppose my life has been sheltered up to the moment that I departed. I might even say that I was privliged to grow up around some of the most intelligent men and women of the country. My life was carefree but proper - something I have learned is not common in these times - and my upbringing was merely done due to the absense of a son, but here I was, a young senorita with knowledge enough to rule the country, and beauty to keep evil at bay.
Thus my friends envied me, and my enemies plotted against me, and every false friend of my father wished their son to be my betrothed. I wasn't swayed from my position as a single woman, and my father never tried to sway me - until Don Miguel showed up. He was my father's friend, thirty years my senior, and had known me all my life. He wished me to marry him, and my father wished me to marry him, and I was lectured by my mother on the importance of duty to one's family. I agreed and I was married off - reaching my fifteenth birthday only months before the ceremony.
There was no talk of love, and no mention of it afterwards. No show of devotion, and no thoughts of passion. To me, it was more like a trip to visit a friend, only my family wasn't with me, and I was always on the arm of the Don, being nothing but a jewel upon his glorious appearance. I suppose the only good thing about the marriage was my placement in the Spanish royal court.
Don Miguel appealed to start a town in the New World and to be governor of it. The king, being a friend both of my father and of the Don, let him go and sent his blessings, wishing only that I should stay in court until the harsh plains could be settled enough for the likes of a lady. By this time I had power in court, but not such that I could change the mind of the king. Instead I stayed as I was told, and I became a regular in court, becoming aquainted with the king and queen, as well as the other Dons and Donnas that graced the halls of the palace.
Life was good - I was a free woman bound only by the golden band on my finger. I had control of a good many of the philosophers and politicians in court, and I spoke on behalf of those who were in the New World and could not be represented properly. I did not miss my husband at all - instead I longed to know what love truely was.
I was summoned though, and taken to a ship, and given a grand party fit for any princess of another country, but I didn't see anything joyous in leaving, only a life that I would lose completely as 'duty' took me farther away from whatever I had compiled of love.
Now you are with me, my only companion and my only friend. You will have to be my link to the old world and to my life. You must take me through my voyage. You must help me find my place. You must show me my life, and prove to me that it has been worth my suffering.
With much regret,
Kate Lopez
-:-Never Forget Who You Are-:-
Dearest,
You were given to me by my father, a gift for the trials to come. At the time you were an intriguing attempt to get me to double my efforts of study, but now I see you as my father meant you to be - a companion when all others are gone. If I had a whole well of ink, or a whole day to scribble my thoughts, I don't think I could get it all down, as the memories are emotional just to recall at this moment. I know that nobody shall see you or your secrets, and that is why you are my dearest - the only one who will know what I have been through just to be who I am.
I suppose my life has been sheltered up to the moment that I departed. I might even say that I was privliged to grow up around some of the most intelligent men and women of the country. My life was carefree but proper - something I have learned is not common in these times - and my upbringing was merely done due to the absense of a son, but here I was, a young senorita with knowledge enough to rule the country, and beauty to keep evil at bay.
Thus my friends envied me, and my enemies plotted against me, and every false friend of my father wished their son to be my betrothed. I wasn't swayed from my position as a single woman, and my father never tried to sway me - until Don Miguel showed up. He was my father's friend, thirty years my senior, and had known me all my life. He wished me to marry him, and my father wished me to marry him, and I was lectured by my mother on the importance of duty to one's family. I agreed and I was married off - reaching my fifteenth birthday only months before the ceremony.
There was no talk of love, and no mention of it afterwards. No show of devotion, and no thoughts of passion. To me, it was more like a trip to visit a friend, only my family wasn't with me, and I was always on the arm of the Don, being nothing but a jewel upon his glorious appearance. I suppose the only good thing about the marriage was my placement in the Spanish royal court.
Don Miguel appealed to start a town in the New World and to be governor of it. The king, being a friend both of my father and of the Don, let him go and sent his blessings, wishing only that I should stay in court until the harsh plains could be settled enough for the likes of a lady. By this time I had power in court, but not such that I could change the mind of the king. Instead I stayed as I was told, and I became a regular in court, becoming aquainted with the king and queen, as well as the other Dons and Donnas that graced the halls of the palace.
Life was good - I was a free woman bound only by the golden band on my finger. I had control of a good many of the philosophers and politicians in court, and I spoke on behalf of those who were in the New World and could not be represented properly. I did not miss my husband at all - instead I longed to know what love truely was.
I was summoned though, and taken to a ship, and given a grand party fit for any princess of another country, but I didn't see anything joyous in leaving, only a life that I would lose completely as 'duty' took me farther away from whatever I had compiled of love.
Now you are with me, my only companion and my only friend. You will have to be my link to the old world and to my life. You must take me through my voyage. You must help me find my place. You must show me my life, and prove to me that it has been worth my suffering.
With much regret,
Kate Lopez
